Most people say they're afraid to die. But I don't think that's true. I think most people are afraid to live. Because if we lived the life God has called us to, why would we be afraid to die?
So the question is really, why are we afraid to live?
We're afraid to live because we're called to something amazing. And amazing scares us. We know ourselves, our brokenness, our weakness, our sin - how could any of this turn into amazing?
The wisdom of the saints urge us on! St. Catherine of Siena said it best, “Be who God meant you to be and you will set the world on fire.”
I'm asking myself this first because I haven't been living these past few weeks. I've been surviving. And that's why I haven't been writing. And that's why I also know this is God's will for me to write. You see, when we get busy, we have a tendency to do our own will and not God's. We shift into what we think is safe "surviving mode," yet God tells us again and again that His will is what brings us life! Jesus said, “My food is to do the will of the one who sent me and to finish his work." (John 4:34). Do we realize that's our food too? Our nourishment is in doing the will of God and finishing His work! And when we don't feel "nourished," it's probably because we aren't doing His Will!
When I write, I am nourished. There is so much peace! When I don't write, something is missing. I'm spiritually hungry! And I start to lose my peace. So if you've been surviving instead of living, take a step back. Ask God to show you His will for your life. What is it that He created you for that no one else in the world can do? Remember that He might not give you the big picture yet (He usually doesn't!), but He will give you a paint brush and a color to start. That's how I think of this website. I don't know what the finished painting looks like, but I know I've been given this brush and paint right now. And sometimes it seems like I'm painting the same spot and not making progress, but I trust in the master artist. I trust God will bring it to completion. "I am confident of this, that the one who began a good work in you will continue to complete it until the day of Christ Jesus." (Philippians 1:6)
As Father Tadeusz Dajczer reflected in the Magnificat for today's Gospel,
"We should not attach ourselves to anything; not even to spiritual gifts, not even to Holy Communion. God's will is the only reality to which one may attach oneself, without claiming it for oneself. Everything besides God's will is a gift and a means to reach our goal, but it is not the goal. If we claim the gift for ourselves, God will either destroy it or–through giving us the experience of suffering–show us that we have nothing to offer, that we are helpless and that it is he who gives us everything."
It's time to start living God's will! If you don't hear from me in awhile, don't be afraid to call me out - help me to do God's will!
Let us ask God how to better follow His will because God's will gives us peace, and we all want peace.